I will dare to do what I do
Be just who I am
& dance whenever I want to
I want to hear music with my eyes closed
and dig my toes in the sand
I want to climb a mountain
and YELL
& sleep under the stars
I want to laugh my head off
& sleep in
& spill coffee
& wear pink
and trip holding your hand
because I am listening so closely♥
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
breathe in the sweetest moments
Was 2009 a good year for you?
Honestly, overall I'd say it's been a hard year. There have been moments of extreme joy and also moments of deep sadness... but God is good through it all.
What was your favorite moment of the year?
favorite moments in time of 2009: 1) riding on a ski lift type contraption up the mountains in Capri, Italy. The view was unreal.. overlooking the sea and the town below.. I had my ipod on and I was listening to 'God of Wonders'. Most amazing worship experience of my life.
2)generally speaking, playing volleyball. This game is just so good for my soul. I loved having the opportunity to play competitively again this year.
3) moments with friends and family who I love dearly and fill my life with laughter and joy.
What was your least favorite moment?
fighting against my desires.. being torn between how things are and how they could be.. moments of not understanding and not knowing what to do..
Where were you when 2009 began?
in my living room.. home alone.. lol
Where will you be when 2009 ends?
I will be in Erica Abel's barn with many friends bringing in the new year together!
Did you keep your new years resolution of 2009?
I made some great progress in each area, so I'm going to say yes.
Do you have a new years resolution for 2010?
I'm certain I will once I sit down and think about it more.
Did you fall in love in 2009?
actually...
If so, with who?
don't worry about it :)
What was the stupidest thing you did this year?
oh yikes. lol let's not go there.
You regret it?
more or less...
Did you break up with anyone in 2009?
yeeeash...
Did you make any new friends in 2009?
I did! and wonderful friends at that!
What was your favorite month of 2009?
May was good. So was October... and November.. and December.. haha
Did you travel outside of the US in 2009?
yep! Italy!
How many states did you travel to in 2009?
hmm.. maybe just like 3?
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2009?
No, I was blessed in not having to go through that this year.
What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2009?
oh i don't even know! i feel like i missed out on seeing all of the good movies this year.
Who was your favorite artist from 2009?
rascal always and forever. I also got kind of into John Mayer this year haha
How many concerts did you see in 2009?
just two I think: Dave Barnes & NKOTB/Jesse McCartney
How much money did you spend in 2009?
more than I should have...
What was your proudest moment of 2009?
hmm...good question. I don't know of any particular moments but I'm proud of myself for taking risks this year... and for asking some hard questions.. and for some qualities I discovered in myself through the tests along the way.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?
giving a shout out during the middle of a sunday sermon.. and this is no small church I go to. I don't know what came over me. Sitting alone with noone beside me to laugh with over what just happened did not help either.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009, and change something what would it be?
you live, you learn...
What are your plans for 2010?
internship in indy during January, trying to balance a busy schedule this fall and next spring, find something fabulous to do this summer, love more, worry less.
blessings.
Honestly, overall I'd say it's been a hard year. There have been moments of extreme joy and also moments of deep sadness... but God is good through it all.
What was your favorite moment of the year?
favorite moments in time of 2009: 1) riding on a ski lift type contraption up the mountains in Capri, Italy. The view was unreal.. overlooking the sea and the town below.. I had my ipod on and I was listening to 'God of Wonders'. Most amazing worship experience of my life.
2)generally speaking, playing volleyball. This game is just so good for my soul. I loved having the opportunity to play competitively again this year.
3) moments with friends and family who I love dearly and fill my life with laughter and joy.
What was your least favorite moment?
fighting against my desires.. being torn between how things are and how they could be.. moments of not understanding and not knowing what to do..
Where were you when 2009 began?
in my living room.. home alone.. lol
Where will you be when 2009 ends?
I will be in Erica Abel's barn with many friends bringing in the new year together!
Did you keep your new years resolution of 2009?
I made some great progress in each area, so I'm going to say yes.
Do you have a new years resolution for 2010?
I'm certain I will once I sit down and think about it more.
Did you fall in love in 2009?
actually...
If so, with who?
don't worry about it :)
What was the stupidest thing you did this year?
oh yikes. lol let's not go there.
You regret it?
more or less...
Did you break up with anyone in 2009?
yeeeash...
Did you make any new friends in 2009?
I did! and wonderful friends at that!
What was your favorite month of 2009?
May was good. So was October... and November.. and December.. haha
Did you travel outside of the US in 2009?
yep! Italy!
How many states did you travel to in 2009?
hmm.. maybe just like 3?
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2009?
No, I was blessed in not having to go through that this year.
What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2009?
oh i don't even know! i feel like i missed out on seeing all of the good movies this year.
Who was your favorite artist from 2009?
rascal always and forever. I also got kind of into John Mayer this year haha
How many concerts did you see in 2009?
just two I think: Dave Barnes & NKOTB/Jesse McCartney
How much money did you spend in 2009?
more than I should have...
What was your proudest moment of 2009?
hmm...good question. I don't know of any particular moments but I'm proud of myself for taking risks this year... and for asking some hard questions.. and for some qualities I discovered in myself through the tests along the way.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?
giving a shout out during the middle of a sunday sermon.. and this is no small church I go to. I don't know what came over me. Sitting alone with noone beside me to laugh with over what just happened did not help either.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009, and change something what would it be?
you live, you learn...
What are your plans for 2010?
internship in indy during January, trying to balance a busy schedule this fall and next spring, find something fabulous to do this summer, love more, worry less.
blessings.
half of my heart
I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
trying my best to understand all that your love can bring
oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh with half of my heart
I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
showing me another way and all that my love can bring
oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh with half of my heart
with half of my heart
your faith is strong
but I can only fall short for so long
down the road, later on you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
but I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
with half of my...half of my heart
oh half of my heart
half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do
half of my heart is a shot gun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
and half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything
half of my heart, oh half of my heart
half of my heart, oh half of my heart
half of my heart, oh half of my heart
half of my heart...
free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
trying my best to understand all that your love can bring
oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh with half of my heart
I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
showing me another way and all that my love can bring
oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh with half of my heart
with half of my heart
your faith is strong
but I can only fall short for so long
down the road, later on you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
but I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
with half of my...half of my heart
oh half of my heart
half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do
half of my heart is a shot gun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
and half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything
half of my heart, oh half of my heart
half of my heart, oh half of my heart
half of my heart, oh half of my heart
half of my heart...
Saturday, December 26, 2009
the love note of a lifetime
I wanted to give you something to read that make might you smile tonight. I looked over from my laptop and saw this very special picture frame I have in my room. In this picture frame there is a note.. a note written for me from a special Honduran friend of mine. I met Victor the summer after my sophomore year of high school. He spoke very little to no English so communication was rather tricky and the following love letter was written with the help of one of his friends serving as a translator. It was a short lived infatuation with my beautiful foreign friend, but I tell ya... no man in my future will ever write me a note so precious as this one. Enjoy :)
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28/08/05
to: Lizzy (apparently I didn't annunciate my name very well..?)
From: Victor
I'm very thankFul with you For you Friendship
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I want to Tell you whaT you are a person very special For my LiFe.
While we were playing voleibol I Feeling something for you.
~~~~~~~~
Excuse me but you are a person vere beatiFul and I like you so much.
I'm in love oF you.
I wiL miss you Forever
Good luck!
BYE
VICTOR
Keep in Mind
Don't Forget
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28/08/05
to: Lizzy (apparently I didn't annunciate my name very well..?)
From: Victor
I'm very thankFul with you For you Friendship
~~~~~~~~
I want to Tell you whaT you are a person very special For my LiFe.
While we were playing voleibol I Feeling something for you.
~~~~~~~~
Excuse me but you are a person vere beatiFul and I like you so much.
I'm in love oF you.
I wiL miss you Forever
Good luck!
BYE
VICTOR
Keep in Mind
Don't Forget
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Thursday, December 24, 2009
don't think i don't think about it
Father,
It's Christmas. It's the day that I'm supposed to be remembering and celebrating you coming to Earth and how your life and death changed everything for me. I'm supposed to be praising you for all of your wonderful works in my life and saving my soul. I should be rereading the beginning of Matthew and letting my mind be filled with wonder and awe. But Lord... my heart isn't there this year. I guess you were probably expecting this from me, huh? It's kind of become a trend these past months for me... knowing what I should be doing and doing the exact opposite. God, it's been awhile since I've talked to you like this and why I'm actually considering posting this on my blog is beyond me... I tried writing out a sentimental Christmas themed post for my friends and I just couldn't do it... nothing seems genuine in me anymore... I don't know where my heart is at.. I figured this might be my best approach at being genuine and offering words that may be of value.
You know what's hard for me to understand though.... as much as people in my life fear that I'm making decisions that are more or less scaring me for life (ha), I finally feel happy again.. so how is that wrong? And in a way.. it feels healthy... I feel like I'm finally being liberated from my fear of judgment, my fear of how I'm perceived by others... It's not important to me. I gave up on my life ambition of having every single person I meet think highly of me. I gave up on trying to please everyone. And God, it is liberating!!
Father, you know I love you and you are the one that I do want to please with my life. Here's the thing though... I want convictions that are real. To be honest, at this point in my life, I'm not sure we're on the same page on certain things. Actually, not so much that as I'm just not sure what page you're on.. There are things I've done that people tell me are hurtful, and there's a voice in my head that echos that same thing... but I'm not sure it's your voice. It sounds more like a sunday school teacher voice, or just that voice i've known since i was a child of dos and don'ts. I want to hear your voice. If something I'm doing is not pleasing to you then tell me, but I want to know why. I want sincere convictions. It's not enough for me to just follow the rules because that's how I've been taught anymore. I feel like over this past year my eyes have really been opened to the world. God, I hate living by the law... I'm sorry if that makes me a terrible follower of you but I've just always been more of a grace person. It's always been about our relationship Lord, not a rule book.
Tonight you asked me a question. I know it was you because it's always you that comes up with these brilliant questions that getting me thinking in directions I would have never set myself to thinking. You asked, "Lindsay, what is your heart's desire right now? What is your pursuit?" And it amazes me that I have no idea. I can't say that I've been pursuing to grow closer to you... that apparently is not truth. I think perhaps this started when I began desiring change for my life. I felt stuck in the same heartache and stuck in my ways and stuck waiting on you and I needed to see something different... And here I am God. And I can't even say that I feel lost or broken or that I'm sorry. I don't feel those things God. I feel happy and I feel strong and it doesn't make sense to me. I think I've been waiting to have some kind of emotional and spiritual breakdown where I suddenly have my eyes opened to how much I've screwed up and how much I need you to take me back in your arms.... but that day is yet to come and God it kind of scares me. You've always been the one to guide me and now here I am and I've kind of taken things into my own hands more or less and I feel good! It doesn't make sense... I don't understand what you're doing here... honestly, it's one of those times where I feel like you're totally oblivious to what's going on..
Father, I desire to be a genuine person. I desire to be a person that lives with passion. I desire to be a person that loves deeply and lives freely. I desire the richest experiences this world has to offer. I desire to have a relationship with you that is stable, and powerful, and beautiful, and effects every aspect of my life here, and is eternal. It's Christmas. This day is about you Lord. And even though, you and everyone else knows what a crazy wonderful disaster I've been lately (ha), I still choose to praise you for everything you are and all that you're doing that I don't currently see or understand. Thank you for allowing me to go on this journey... I just pray you'll help me understand...show me whatever it is I'm missing. And please give my friends and family patience with me. And please, when it's time, win my heart back.
Lord, please bless my friends and family this Christmas. They are all so wonderful to me even when I know I don't deserve it. Thank you for putting each one of them in my life. Bless them. I love you, dad.
It's Christmas. It's the day that I'm supposed to be remembering and celebrating you coming to Earth and how your life and death changed everything for me. I'm supposed to be praising you for all of your wonderful works in my life and saving my soul. I should be rereading the beginning of Matthew and letting my mind be filled with wonder and awe. But Lord... my heart isn't there this year. I guess you were probably expecting this from me, huh? It's kind of become a trend these past months for me... knowing what I should be doing and doing the exact opposite. God, it's been awhile since I've talked to you like this and why I'm actually considering posting this on my blog is beyond me... I tried writing out a sentimental Christmas themed post for my friends and I just couldn't do it... nothing seems genuine in me anymore... I don't know where my heart is at.. I figured this might be my best approach at being genuine and offering words that may be of value.
You know what's hard for me to understand though.... as much as people in my life fear that I'm making decisions that are more or less scaring me for life (ha), I finally feel happy again.. so how is that wrong? And in a way.. it feels healthy... I feel like I'm finally being liberated from my fear of judgment, my fear of how I'm perceived by others... It's not important to me. I gave up on my life ambition of having every single person I meet think highly of me. I gave up on trying to please everyone. And God, it is liberating!!
Father, you know I love you and you are the one that I do want to please with my life. Here's the thing though... I want convictions that are real. To be honest, at this point in my life, I'm not sure we're on the same page on certain things. Actually, not so much that as I'm just not sure what page you're on.. There are things I've done that people tell me are hurtful, and there's a voice in my head that echos that same thing... but I'm not sure it's your voice. It sounds more like a sunday school teacher voice, or just that voice i've known since i was a child of dos and don'ts. I want to hear your voice. If something I'm doing is not pleasing to you then tell me, but I want to know why. I want sincere convictions. It's not enough for me to just follow the rules because that's how I've been taught anymore. I feel like over this past year my eyes have really been opened to the world. God, I hate living by the law... I'm sorry if that makes me a terrible follower of you but I've just always been more of a grace person. It's always been about our relationship Lord, not a rule book.
Tonight you asked me a question. I know it was you because it's always you that comes up with these brilliant questions that getting me thinking in directions I would have never set myself to thinking. You asked, "Lindsay, what is your heart's desire right now? What is your pursuit?" And it amazes me that I have no idea. I can't say that I've been pursuing to grow closer to you... that apparently is not truth. I think perhaps this started when I began desiring change for my life. I felt stuck in the same heartache and stuck in my ways and stuck waiting on you and I needed to see something different... And here I am God. And I can't even say that I feel lost or broken or that I'm sorry. I don't feel those things God. I feel happy and I feel strong and it doesn't make sense to me. I think I've been waiting to have some kind of emotional and spiritual breakdown where I suddenly have my eyes opened to how much I've screwed up and how much I need you to take me back in your arms.... but that day is yet to come and God it kind of scares me. You've always been the one to guide me and now here I am and I've kind of taken things into my own hands more or less and I feel good! It doesn't make sense... I don't understand what you're doing here... honestly, it's one of those times where I feel like you're totally oblivious to what's going on..
Father, I desire to be a genuine person. I desire to be a person that lives with passion. I desire to be a person that loves deeply and lives freely. I desire the richest experiences this world has to offer. I desire to have a relationship with you that is stable, and powerful, and beautiful, and effects every aspect of my life here, and is eternal. It's Christmas. This day is about you Lord. And even though, you and everyone else knows what a crazy wonderful disaster I've been lately (ha), I still choose to praise you for everything you are and all that you're doing that I don't currently see or understand. Thank you for allowing me to go on this journey... I just pray you'll help me understand...show me whatever it is I'm missing. And please give my friends and family patience with me. And please, when it's time, win my heart back.
Lord, please bless my friends and family this Christmas. They are all so wonderful to me even when I know I don't deserve it. Thank you for putting each one of them in my life. Bless them. I love you, dad.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Oy vey!
Back from Chi-town and feelin good! ....*long sigh of relief*..... it feels SO good to be finished with finals and have this semester behind me! This past weekend a group of eight of my closest HU girlfriends and I went out to Chicago just to enjoy the city, enjoy each other, and celebrate the end of a semester during which we were entirely too busy for our own good and missed out on having time to spend with each other. It was wonderful. Fun, refreshing, and just good for my soul! Ah, I love you girls! :)
And now I'm home! I'm real excited to have this long break but we'll see how many days it takes before i start getting restless haha. BUT I'm working on adopting this new life mantra. I'm not quite sure how I want to word it yet... but I know the general principles behind it. It's going to be fabulous though lol. I'm just lovin life lately I tell ya haha. Anyways let's make some lists since that's what we all like here.
Things I'm excited about!
1)The Bachelor 2010 starting January 4th with.... JAKE PAVELKA!
2)Iceskating with some of the girls Tuesday
3)Christmas!
4) New Years at Erica's! I'm thinking I might actually have a good New Year's Eve for the first time in my life this year!
5) New Years resolutions aka... new life mantra. lol
6) figuring out how to arrange to uproot my life and move to Italy permanately.
7) this new John Mayer music on my itunes
8) today is Bekah's birthday! happy birthday girl!
9) going to stay with Laura on monday/meet and greet and win over the hearts of the company I'll hopefully be interning for this January.
10) having Lindsay time! so many books to read... so many baths to take... so much coffee to drink... so many movies to watch... so much friend and family time to be had... oh it's going to be wonderful!!
Here's a list of the books I want to read before the start of the spring semester
1)Eat, Pray, Love (in progress)
2)Jane Ayre
3)Any Jodi Picoult book (taking suggestions. already read My Sister's Keeper)
4)Letters for Lizzie
5)God's Will As a Way of Life (for the third time? okay.)
Well friends, thanks for reading. Congratulations on making it through the semester/almost through another year. I'll probably be writing more now that I'm home and have nothing to do with my life so get excited!! lol
LOVE YOU ALL! have a beautiful day.
And now I'm home! I'm real excited to have this long break but we'll see how many days it takes before i start getting restless haha. BUT I'm working on adopting this new life mantra. I'm not quite sure how I want to word it yet... but I know the general principles behind it. It's going to be fabulous though lol. I'm just lovin life lately I tell ya haha. Anyways let's make some lists since that's what we all like here.
Things I'm excited about!
1)The Bachelor 2010 starting January 4th with.... JAKE PAVELKA!
2)Iceskating with some of the girls Tuesday
3)Christmas!
4) New Years at Erica's! I'm thinking I might actually have a good New Year's Eve for the first time in my life this year!
5) New Years resolutions aka... new life mantra. lol
6) figuring out how to arrange to uproot my life and move to Italy permanately.
7) this new John Mayer music on my itunes
8) today is Bekah's birthday! happy birthday girl!
9) going to stay with Laura on monday/meet and greet and win over the hearts of the company I'll hopefully be interning for this January.
10) having Lindsay time! so many books to read... so many baths to take... so much coffee to drink... so many movies to watch... so much friend and family time to be had... oh it's going to be wonderful!!
Here's a list of the books I want to read before the start of the spring semester
1)Eat, Pray, Love (in progress)
2)Jane Ayre
3)Any Jodi Picoult book (taking suggestions. already read My Sister's Keeper)
4)Letters for Lizzie
5)God's Will As a Way of Life (for the third time? okay.)
Well friends, thanks for reading. Congratulations on making it through the semester/almost through another year. I'll probably be writing more now that I'm home and have nothing to do with my life so get excited!! lol
LOVE YOU ALL! have a beautiful day.
Monday, December 14, 2009
focus lindsay. focus.
soooo i've kind of got this problem. you see, i don't in particularly have any desire to care about my finals this week. I think it's going to be just fine though. Today I went to an animal shelter and I hung out with some pretty fun cats for awhile. We had special bonding time. I formed an especially close relationship with Mr. Remus. He was super cool... a real intellect. I wanted to take him home. Here's a discovery of the day... we were at Uncle Bill's pet store admiring all the fish, and I tell ya.. we have an amazing Creator. Those fish were all just so interestingly designed... one of them had these crazy patterns of florescent colors and crazy fins that were all just freaking out and flapping around so fast. They were all just so different and interesting. It amazes me how even the smallest fish of the sea reflect such unique design. Creation never ceases to speak of His wonders...
Another thought.... I'm so thankful for my friends right now. I've really been enjoying my life lately and I have them (/you) to thank for that haha. But really. Let's make a list of other things I'm thankful for right now. Okay, ready, go.
1. philosophy study guides
2. panera coffee and how it's causing my body to shake right now
3. Chi-town in T-3 days
4. Michael's sweatshirt that I may or may not wear every day this week
5. being done with Salesmanship forever!
6. shiny metallic purple outfits at Burlington
7. long conversations about life when you 'should' be studying
8. knowing what's ultimately important in life
9. experiences and fun along the way
Is it going to bother you if I don't have a #10? okay, good. :)
I love you all. Thanks for stopping by and have a great Tuesday!
Another thought.... I'm so thankful for my friends right now. I've really been enjoying my life lately and I have them (/you) to thank for that haha. But really. Let's make a list of other things I'm thankful for right now. Okay, ready, go.
1. philosophy study guides
2. panera coffee and how it's causing my body to shake right now
3. Chi-town in T-3 days
4. Michael's sweatshirt that I may or may not wear every day this week
5. being done with Salesmanship forever!
6. shiny metallic purple outfits at Burlington
7. long conversations about life when you 'should' be studying
8. knowing what's ultimately important in life
9. experiences and fun along the way
Is it going to bother you if I don't have a #10? okay, good. :)
I love you all. Thanks for stopping by and have a great Tuesday!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
grey poupon
hey friends,
i'm kind of in a crazy irrational explosive mood right now so just a warning :) it's been decided that the blue poupon is responsible for triggering this emotion. But I'm not here to talk about emotions or anger or throwing glass vases at trees... Im here because I don't want to sleep quite yet and kind of just want to do a survey.. you know, the kind that you probably don't care about but then it's kind of amusing to read through anyways.. that's the kind. so enjoy.
1. Where is the person who has your heart? don't want to talk about it haha (off to a great start here)
2. What does your last text message say? 'oh well i guess everyone in hardy and wright were freaked out and talking about it cause it was so loud. haha' (make of that what you will)
3. What is the wallpaper on your phone? curvy green beams of light. (mother's phone.. haven't changed it)
4. What did you do today? got Mcds,watched Mean Girls with Jeanine and Jana,went swimming with Jeanine, went to dinner with Erica, went to an art dept. christmas party, had game night, got really angry sometime during game night, went around throwing things like a glass vase at a tree, chilled out, regrouped, and relaxed
5. What do you want for your birthday? wellllll....
6. Is there anyone who doesn't like you? I'm going to guess yes but I really try not to have enemies.
7. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? HU volleyball
8. When was the last time you laughed really hard?tonight when Jeanine and I were just so mad for no reason.
9. Are you happy? contrary to the theme of this blog, yes I'm very happy. :)
10. Do you miss anyone? probably.
11. What are you craving at the moment? i'm kind of thirsty actually. maybe some juice?
12. Have a best friend? a couple actually and it's a beautiful thing
13. Does the last person who texted you make you smile? certainly.
14. When is the last time you cried?a few days ago
15. Will this weekend be a good one? this weekend has been a GREAT one.haha
16. Where do you want to live when you are old?Oh I change my mind about this a lot but maybe Italy, or Chicago, or Colorado. Those are my top three right now lol. Dream big right?
17. Are you in a complicated relationship? more or less. but probably less.
18. Who's the biggest asshole you know? dah...
19. Are you planning on going to college? looks that way. i still consider dropping out at least once a week though haha
20. What are you listening to right now? nothing. it's silent and it's wonderful.
21. Are you looking forward to anything?Chi-town trip with the girls in a week, Christmas break, Jterm internship in Indy...
22. Who is your crush right now? haha oooh buddy...
23. What does the 7th text in your phone say? 'OK that's fine'(lame. sorry.)
24. How old are you? twenty. suck.
25. One food you definitely cannot stand? pretty sure i like it all.
26. When was the last time you dyed or cut your hair? happy with it? I haven't cut it since June and no I'm not happy with it. I want it to be super long again. I miss my hair.
27. How many songs are on your iTunes?: 1787? did i make that number up?
28. Any song ruined for you because of a certain someone?: a few.
29. How do you think other people view you?: that i'm pretty quiet. and oh how wrong they are! lol just kidding.. but seriously..
30. Do you usually know when someones lying to you? I'm getting good at knowing yes.
31. Is everyone a good person till proved wrong in your book? i suppose.
32. Do different brands of water actually taste different?: probably but it doesn't impact my water decisions too much.
33. Your last incoming call from the opposite sex?my brother.
34. Are you dressing up for Halloween this year?this past year I was Pebbles lol
35. When was the last time you totally broke down? oh it's been a few weeks now.
36. What are your plans for tomorrow? go to my home church with jeanine and then stay at my house all day to study/get away. Christmas party at the 807 in the evening? maybe?
37. Do you remember what you wore last night? i do. jeans and a black shirt.
38. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? depends what they're smokin and how often they're smoking it. so yes i guess it does matter.
39. Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? a girl
40. What were you doing at midnight last night? haha. oh gosh. hard tellin...
41. What gets on your nerves? a lot of things have been lately haha
42. Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009? at home alone on my couch. i think i may or may not have done a cartwheel just to spice up the evening a little. again, not something i want to talk about.
43. Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?no and i'm thinking i'd be very nervous to lol
44. How many times has your ex made you cry? ha. haha. ha.
45. Have you ever liked someone that you didn't expect to? yeah i suppose you could say that.
46. What made you pissed off today? being super cold trying to sleep and board games
47. Would your parents be mad if you came home drunk? lol mad isn't even the word...
48. Is there someone you want to see? probably.
49. Could you last in a relationship for over a year? i'd like to think so.
50. Who was the first person you talked to this morning? Jana
51. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it? define love.
52. Was last night terrible? haha not in the least
53. Do you currently like someone who doesn't know you exist? no, that would be a situation..
54. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? trick question.
55. Does anyone hate you? I would hope not.
56. What are you doing tonight? about to go to bed.
57. Have you chewed gum after someone else already has? probably.
58. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?yes :(
59. Did you sleep with anyone last night? Jana! be jealous.
60. Do you like to be alone? yes, my alone time is vital to my well being.
61. Ever been cheated on? no comment.
62. If you had to choose, would you rather be an alcoholic or a pothead? hmm..that's a tough one. for the time being i'm going to say an alcoholic but i might change my mind.
63. Can you honestly say that at this point and time you're happy with the way things are going in your life? for the most part..
64. When will your next kiss be? you just never know.lol
65. You kissed someone today, didn't you? false.
66. Who was the last person who high-fived you? sadetina lol
67. Are your parents in love?yes sir.
68. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over? i enjoy both.
69. How late did you stay up last night and why?like 4 or 5 am and because i was loving life lol
70. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a K? haha yeah.
That's all I've got for you. Sorry, kind of lame. I love you all! Good luck with your finals and all that craziness.
Love,
i'm kind of in a crazy irrational explosive mood right now so just a warning :) it's been decided that the blue poupon is responsible for triggering this emotion. But I'm not here to talk about emotions or anger or throwing glass vases at trees... Im here because I don't want to sleep quite yet and kind of just want to do a survey.. you know, the kind that you probably don't care about but then it's kind of amusing to read through anyways.. that's the kind. so enjoy.
1. Where is the person who has your heart? don't want to talk about it haha (off to a great start here)
2. What does your last text message say? 'oh well i guess everyone in hardy and wright were freaked out and talking about it cause it was so loud. haha' (make of that what you will)
3. What is the wallpaper on your phone? curvy green beams of light. (mother's phone.. haven't changed it)
4. What did you do today? got Mcds,watched Mean Girls with Jeanine and Jana,went swimming with Jeanine, went to dinner with Erica, went to an art dept. christmas party, had game night, got really angry sometime during game night, went around throwing things like a glass vase at a tree, chilled out, regrouped, and relaxed
5. What do you want for your birthday? wellllll....
6. Is there anyone who doesn't like you? I'm going to guess yes but I really try not to have enemies.
7. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? HU volleyball
8. When was the last time you laughed really hard?tonight when Jeanine and I were just so mad for no reason.
9. Are you happy? contrary to the theme of this blog, yes I'm very happy. :)
10. Do you miss anyone? probably.
11. What are you craving at the moment? i'm kind of thirsty actually. maybe some juice?
12. Have a best friend? a couple actually and it's a beautiful thing
13. Does the last person who texted you make you smile? certainly.
14. When is the last time you cried?a few days ago
15. Will this weekend be a good one? this weekend has been a GREAT one.haha
16. Where do you want to live when you are old?Oh I change my mind about this a lot but maybe Italy, or Chicago, or Colorado. Those are my top three right now lol. Dream big right?
17. Are you in a complicated relationship? more or less. but probably less.
18. Who's the biggest asshole you know? dah...
19. Are you planning on going to college? looks that way. i still consider dropping out at least once a week though haha
20. What are you listening to right now? nothing. it's silent and it's wonderful.
21. Are you looking forward to anything?Chi-town trip with the girls in a week, Christmas break, Jterm internship in Indy...
22. Who is your crush right now? haha oooh buddy...
23. What does the 7th text in your phone say? 'OK that's fine'(lame. sorry.)
24. How old are you? twenty. suck.
25. One food you definitely cannot stand? pretty sure i like it all.
26. When was the last time you dyed or cut your hair? happy with it? I haven't cut it since June and no I'm not happy with it. I want it to be super long again. I miss my hair.
27. How many songs are on your iTunes?: 1787? did i make that number up?
28. Any song ruined for you because of a certain someone?: a few.
29. How do you think other people view you?: that i'm pretty quiet. and oh how wrong they are! lol just kidding.. but seriously..
30. Do you usually know when someones lying to you? I'm getting good at knowing yes.
31. Is everyone a good person till proved wrong in your book? i suppose.
32. Do different brands of water actually taste different?: probably but it doesn't impact my water decisions too much.
33. Your last incoming call from the opposite sex?my brother.
34. Are you dressing up for Halloween this year?this past year I was Pebbles lol
35. When was the last time you totally broke down? oh it's been a few weeks now.
36. What are your plans for tomorrow? go to my home church with jeanine and then stay at my house all day to study/get away. Christmas party at the 807 in the evening? maybe?
37. Do you remember what you wore last night? i do. jeans and a black shirt.
38. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? depends what they're smokin and how often they're smoking it. so yes i guess it does matter.
39. Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? a girl
40. What were you doing at midnight last night? haha. oh gosh. hard tellin...
41. What gets on your nerves? a lot of things have been lately haha
42. Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009? at home alone on my couch. i think i may or may not have done a cartwheel just to spice up the evening a little. again, not something i want to talk about.
43. Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?no and i'm thinking i'd be very nervous to lol
44. How many times has your ex made you cry? ha. haha. ha.
45. Have you ever liked someone that you didn't expect to? yeah i suppose you could say that.
46. What made you pissed off today? being super cold trying to sleep and board games
47. Would your parents be mad if you came home drunk? lol mad isn't even the word...
48. Is there someone you want to see? probably.
49. Could you last in a relationship for over a year? i'd like to think so.
50. Who was the first person you talked to this morning? Jana
51. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it? define love.
52. Was last night terrible? haha not in the least
53. Do you currently like someone who doesn't know you exist? no, that would be a situation..
54. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? trick question.
55. Does anyone hate you? I would hope not.
56. What are you doing tonight? about to go to bed.
57. Have you chewed gum after someone else already has? probably.
58. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?yes :(
59. Did you sleep with anyone last night? Jana! be jealous.
60. Do you like to be alone? yes, my alone time is vital to my well being.
61. Ever been cheated on? no comment.
62. If you had to choose, would you rather be an alcoholic or a pothead? hmm..that's a tough one. for the time being i'm going to say an alcoholic but i might change my mind.
63. Can you honestly say that at this point and time you're happy with the way things are going in your life? for the most part..
64. When will your next kiss be? you just never know.lol
65. You kissed someone today, didn't you? false.
66. Who was the last person who high-fived you? sadetina lol
67. Are your parents in love?yes sir.
68. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over? i enjoy both.
69. How late did you stay up last night and why?like 4 or 5 am and because i was loving life lol
70. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a K? haha yeah.
That's all I've got for you. Sorry, kind of lame. I love you all! Good luck with your finals and all that craziness.
Love,
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
someday we'll figure all this out
Today was kind of an exceptionally good day. I recieved news that my design for a local citywide event has been chosen and will be used for all of their promotional materials (billboard, yard signs, church bullletin inserts, t-shirts, stationary..) While this may or may not be a big deal, it's still really exciting to me to have this opportunity for my work to be turned into printed materials for real use for the first time ever! And it sounds like it's going to be a great event, so I feel blessed to contribute to it in this manner. Second piece of exciting news on the day... My potential internship I'm wanting for January is looking very promising. Other good things from today... big marketing presentation done and over, had a lovely evening with a good friend, got to participate in a fun photoshoot for a friend's photography project, and I'm actually in bed by 1:00. What a wonderful day.
Well, just wanted to give an update on my life and share some good news with those of you I don't get to talk to on a daily basis. I really don't have anything else of value to say.... except that I'm really excited for Christmas break! It'll be so nice to have time to read, and sleep in, and take baths, and hang out with my brother all day every day! lol oh i love that kid.
For anyone who actually still (or ever has) checked this, I hope you are doing well and that your day will be so blessed. Go do something fun today. You have my permission.
i love you guys.
Well, just wanted to give an update on my life and share some good news with those of you I don't get to talk to on a daily basis. I really don't have anything else of value to say.... except that I'm really excited for Christmas break! It'll be so nice to have time to read, and sleep in, and take baths, and hang out with my brother all day every day! lol oh i love that kid.
For anyone who actually still (or ever has) checked this, I hope you are doing well and that your day will be so blessed. Go do something fun today. You have my permission.
i love you guys.
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