all the small things

Life is absolutely kicking my butt right now haha. This isn't to say that I'm too discouraged really.. I have confidence that all will be well and I've still got the joy joy down in my heart. But you know how sometimes you'll be going through life and just enjoying the smoothness of it all and then the next minute everything seems crazy, chaotic and out of control? That's been the story of my week. The thing is I can't even complain.. okay, that's a lie.. I can and I have been complaining a lot haha.. but I don't have reasonable grounds to complain. All of the craziness that has me stressing out are all such small things... small things that contribute to a bigger blessing. I'm stressed about my school load for next year.. but then I think how privleged I am to get a college education and be graduating hopefully next may. I'm disappointed over my summer plans not turning out how I had wanted.. but then in a way I feel relieved to get another summer around home before I go off into the world (haha). I stress over the upcoming volleyball season and all of the changes and unknowns.. but then I'm just so thankful I have the opportunity to play at all. I worry about failed relationships (ha).. but then I'm grateful just for the friendships. I dwell on past mistakes, and regrets and a life filled with sin.. but then I'm drawn to the cross and reminded of redemption. Sometimes life doesn't go as we plan.. sometimes the little things blind us to the bigger picture.. sometimes life just flat out kicks our butt, ha..

Father, through it all You are good. Thank you for weeks like this that keep our hearts yearning for Heaven.

welcome back to real life

sometimes.. things don't go how we planned...

lindsay world

hello friends! Well it's been another two wonderful days so I figure it's time I take note again..


Wednesday:
-lost in Lindsay world
-St. Patty's!
-PJs Seagrille..
mm mm mmm!!


Thursday:
-Lindsay world continues
-Nicholas Sparks round two
-hello sunshine, thanks for coming back
-easy beefy cheesy greasy meesy louise!

As you can see, the past two days have provided much needed time just for relaxation and reflection. You know what I find interesting about being on vacation.. It's like I enter this crazy limbo of time. I don't even know how to begin to describe what I mean by that really.. I guess in a way you could say the past, present, and future are all equally real.. the feeling could also maybe be described as stepping outside of time all together for awhile. I've been thinking a lot about the girl I used to be when I was young and just remembering how she saw the world and the dreams she had for her life and that blissful feeling she had just from laying out on a towel in the sun on fresh cut grass much like I was doing today. I always seem to like to get lost in those thoughts when I have extended amounts of free time like this. But then I've been balancing my reflections on the past with all of these dreams for the future. It's nothing new that I've been dreaming of all the places I want to travel and all of the things I want to do and all of the people I want to meet... but what's kind of surprised me this week is I've been thinking a lot about the future family I want to have one day. Now don't freak out on me yet. This definitely isn't me proclaiming a desire to get married and have children and buy the minivan asap. I guess it just kind of hit me while I was thinking over all the great vacations I've had growing up, that as a parent I'll get to provide that for my kids too.. and that's crazy exciting for me!

Like I said.. I've just been lost in Lindsay world the past two days. Crazy things happen there so don't feel bad if you have no idea what I'm talking about lol.

In conclusion, bella vita... It's a beautiful life.

boca grande

Greetings from Boca Grande! Ah, I am having the most wonderful time of my life here on Gasparilla Island this week! I've got three of my best friends and a beautiful beach.. and for the week my world is feeling pretty right. The purpose of this post is mostly for my own benefit so that I can recall what I've done each day when telling my family/whoever may be interested about my week. I'm just gonna throw out some phrases for now and if anything sparks your interest feel free to ask for a story and maybe later on I'll get around to elaborating a little further. But for now..

Saturday:
-plane entertainment
-the Yaris
-the house hunt

Sunday:
-Butler's tour of the town
-beach time
-Publix
-spaghetti candlelight dinner

Monday:
-breakfast at tiffany's
-Butler to the state park
-starfish and poodles
-sun time
-phase 10

Tuesday:
-walk, coffee, shells, and dolphins
-2 mile run with no shoes = bad idea
-Aunt Robin & Dennis
-impulse shopping at Pataya
-surprise Christen! Red Sox game!


...I tell ya, it doesn't get much better than this :)

blessings,
Lindsay

twenty one

wooo! 21!

Had the big birthday on Tuesday.. It was everything a birthday should be. I was afraid I'd spend the day stressed out because I'd gotten way behind in all my classes and had previously been a little freaked out about failing at life. But I was determined not to let that affect me for one day and ended up having a wonderful day. I got to spend an entire afternoon and get ice cream with my best friend, I got to have dinner with my family, I got to have coffee and cake with my lovely roommates, I got to have a dance party with them as well with our disco ball! The sun was shining! I got to go for a nice long drive with Jana listening to country music! I got to hang out with this guy I kind of like.. lol. It was just everything I could want in one day! Thank you friends for making my life so fun!

Other updates..

I'm now coaching a club volleyball team of high school freshman/sophomores. We're the purple cobras. The girls are real cool and I'm excited to spend more time with them. On Sunday we had a tournament at Mishawaka. That provided for a quality roadtrip with Bekah and Jess! I didn't anticipate coaching would be so unnatural for me though haha. You would think after playing a sport for 12 years of your life, you would pretty much have it all figured out and have some words of instructional wisdom to offer. But I'm tellin ya, you don't realize how much there is going on when you have to worry about what everyone on the court is doing and not just worry about yourself! I'm so unobservant anyways, it takes awhile of watching for me to start to pick up on each player's areas for improvement. Also, it's been requested that I start yelling at some of the girls haha. I understand that everyone has their own ways of being motivated and so if that's what it takes then I guess I'm gonna have to learn how to yell at them! lol oh yikes.

I'm really going to try to rediscover my motivation for education here real soon so that I don't completely wreck my grades before spring break. Yes, that would probably be a good idea. I'm drawing a peacock with pastels. We're currently getting along alright. But stay tuned.

spring break.... SO EXCITED! oh mylanta! It's going to be the best week of my life I just know! Chels and I were talking in chapel today about all the prep work we need to get started on for this... packing list and planning our themed meal.. I need to get started! It's going to be legendary.

Alright, I think that's all the updates I have for now. Sorry it was nothing deep or meaningful today, or any day really.. I just like keeping a record of my life haha.
But.. I love you all! Have a blessed day!