a good laugh, a warm bath, and a beautiful song you can sing along to

wow. so it's my last night here. today was the last day of my three week long internship.. that doesn't sound like very long, but let me tell you.. it's been a journey. my boss took me out for lunch today and he told me i got more work done in these past few weeks than most interns get done in an entire summer. my finished projects include a new logo, a program template, and an organization brochure. i may or may not continue working on presentation pieces for felege once i get back to school depending on my schedule. while it's been a great learning experience and i feel like i've grown, i'm left feeling very hungry.. i want to get so much better than i am. i want to be a really great designer some day. right now i'm open as far as career path goes.. maybe i'll end up working for a company like the one i've been with, maybe i'll end up owning my own boutique/coffee shop some day which has been my lifelong dream, or maybe i'll have a short lived professional life and devote my time to being the best wife and mother i can be. i would be happy with any of these paths. i think it's okay that i don't have one set direction i want my life to go right now. but having this experience does make me desire to grow. i'm excited to go back to being a student. what a blessing to have such an investment on developing my talent.. i don't want to take my education for granted. there's just so much i want to do. i want to travel all over. i want to live in a big city... a city that's all my own. i want to be able to be independent and free spirited. i want to promote beauty.

I'd also like to say I've really enjoyed getting to live with my uncle and his family these past few weeks. It's been fun getting to hang out with my cousins that I usually only get to see on special occasions. We've had some funny times together! I'll miss it here. BUT... I can't tell you how excited I am to be back living in my apartment at school with my roommates! ah... it's what my soul needs.

sorry for my lack of capitalization in this post. wasn't feelin it.

hanno una bella giornata♥

dreams dreams dreams...

that's right.. lindsay's off coming up with big dreams again. look out. haha. you know how there are those people in the world that just somehow make all of their dreams come true and go out and experience amazing things or accomplish great things and have all of these crazy wonderful opportunities open up before them... I want to figure out how to be one of those people.

step 1: call my parents tomorrow. lol

back in His arms

I feel like my spirit's been renewed. I don't even know what words I can say. I don't know how to describe this. I'm scared to describe it. I've been in a place of such confussion for too long now and now I finally feel like me again.. but more alive. I'm scared to describe it because I'm afraid that I'll wake up tomorrow or the next day and be back in that place. All I can do is be genuine in the moment though I guess. So, I've been thinking lyrically lately haha. It's my best bet at communication right now. So here's another song for you.

I see it in your eyes
The pain you keep inside
It's slowly tearing you apart
Though you've run away
Reminded day by day
You've stumbled and you've fallen
Still He's calling

I believe that He loves you where you are
I believe that you've seen the hands of God
I believe that you'll know it when
You're back in His arms again
I believe that He never let you go
I believe that He's wanting you to know
I believe that He'll lead you 'til
You're back in His arms again

Glad I found you here
'Cause in between the tears
Something in your eyes shows hope
And I stand before you now
As one that knows about
Coming to Him open and broken

And I know that He's callin' He's callin' you Home
One life, one love, one way Home
And when you rise and when you fall He will see you through it all
He is waiting, you are called, back in His arms again.

Ti voglio bene.

better is one day

one thing i ask
and i would seek
to see Your beauty
to find You in
the place Your glory dwells

my heart and flesh cry out
to You, the Living God
Your Spirit's water to my soul
i've tasted and i've seen
come once again to me
i will draw near to You
i will draw near to You...

abre mis ojos, oh Cristo

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, "I miss you son. Come home"
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was more than
The love I'd wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told you so's
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you...
God all this time I needed you..
I needed you

can i get my rose back?

oh the Bachelor. My pick so far is Ali. She seems like a good match for Jake.. she's sweet and she seems genuine. She's got my vote for now. :) That's my update on that since I haven't been getting to watch it with the girls and expressing my opinions haha

Work today was good. I've started working on illustrating the logo on the computer, so time kind of flies when I get going on that. I like how it's looking. Tomorrow I show my boss and have another conference call with the client. I hope they like it!

I think..... I'm going to start reading a new book. I've been eyeing this book in Laura's closet all week. Redeeming Love. I've heard good things about it.... Here we go!!

Love.

bull riders and engagements

Well big news of the weekend... my sister Danielle and Adam are engaged!

It's kind of ironic because I've had multiple dreams this week about different people in my life telling me they're engaged. They've for the most part been really upsetting dreams lol but this on the contrary, is great news!

Yesterday Laura and I went to this cathedral downtown where they were having a bridal show. This consisted of lots of vendors with booths giving samples of everything from cakes and champagne, to flowers, to dresses and tuxes, to hair stylist, to djs and photographers. It was crazy. I sampled 12 different kinds of wedding cake!! oh my. And then we got a group of people together and went to a rodeo at Conseco. It was quite the experience.

So... I took a long nap today.. trying to get refueled for another week. I've got this new strategy for this week.... More coffee. More Lindsay time. More reading. More how i met your mother. Less everything else that's got me feeling burned out. :)

Love you friends! Hope all is going well for you! HU friends.. can't wait to see you all in a couple weeks!

straws are a luxury

Key points from my day:

1) My clients liked a couple of my designs. Boss was pleased with them as well as my presentation. I get to start on revisions now. I feel like I'm learning so this is a good thing. Biggest lesson so far is to ask questions and be assertive. This does not come natural for me but I'm getting better.

2) Demetri Martin= comedian = funny guy. Check him out. You'll laugh I promise.

3) New music sensation: Phoenix. The song Lisztomania inparticular.

4) I thank Grant forintroducing me to the previous two key points from the day.

5) Straws are a luxury!

woooo

Today at work was better. I spent the 7.5 hours sketching ideas... but somehow it went fast. Some of my ideas seem promising. I meet with my 'clients' again on Friday to show them what I have (or will have by then) so that's my goal for this week is to get a couple things looking presentable.

Other happenings... Laura took me on a tour of the whole Indy area/surrounding suberbs. Lord knows I will still get lost even after that orientation and the help of my gps, but I'm okay with adventure. There are so many food places I want to go! Also tonight we had a How I Met Your Mother marathon. I love that show! It's super funny. The last episode was about 'woooo' girls. I decided I am one of them. We are the type that hang around each other and whenever anything excites us we shout 'wooo' in unison. I'm not ashamed. As Barney (on the show) says, "The world needs wooo girls. Because without them, whenever Brown Eyed Girl comes on the jukebox all you would hear would be silence... and Brown Eyed Girl..'

Love you friends. Miss you in my life dearly.

felege hiywot

So I promised I'd tell you a little more about the organization I'm designing for. Felege Hiywot means 'finding a direction for life.' It is a not for profit organization run out of downtown Indy. The lady who started the program is a wonderfully sweet Ethiopian woman named Aster. It's kind of tricky to explain exactly what they do but the most basic way I can try to explain it is they run summer and after school programs for the Indy youth where they teach gardening, environmentalism, nutrition, ect. They also celebrate the Ethiopian culture and support an orphanage over in Ethiopia. So the work I'm doing for them consists of creating a new logo, a presentation piece (which is basically a pamphlet with different inserts of all their different programs, ect.) and a program template (which is basically a letterhead more or less that they can use for their weekly lesson plans). So maybe that gives you a little better idea of what I'm doing here.

Conclusion of the day: I'm not cut out for real life.

I really need to figure out how to not be so awkward in new situations lol. I don't even know! It's awful haha. So yeah, I'm overwhelmed with a lot right now. And I kind of have a bad attitude about it all right now as well haha. I would welcome any prayers. :)

OH! But I need to tell you about some great new discoveries!

1. Stock photography sites ...why did nobody ever tell me about these! It's like google searches except only with the good results. You can find some great images this way.. granted you have to pay to be able to download or use them but it's a good resource for getting ideas. istockphoto.com and shutterstock are good sites.

2. Cajun food! Yats = soo good! Next time you're in Indy, please go.

I also want to tell you a story. So today when my 'boss' took me out for lunch at Yats, well first of all the guy working the counter referred to me as 'sugar'. I feel like it was mildly inappropriate considering he was definitely in my age range like 23-27ish.. but whatev. Anyways, but then my boss realized that they only took cash and the 'sugar' guy at the counter was like 'it's cool we can make an I.O.U. Just come in later this week sometime and pay.' It just made me so happy! I love that kind of trust in a total stranger. It's the way the world should be.

here we go

Sometimes, I really try not to be awkward in new situations... but it always fails.

Haha okay so day 1...
well, I moved down to Zionsville last night (for those that don't know) to stay with my aunt and uncle (and their 4 kids and my sister) for the next 3 weeks while I do an internship with a graphic design company here. I think I'm going to enjoy living here. It's kind of nice being around kids again (we'll see how long I say that for) and it's just nice being somewhere new. I realize at some point I'm potentially going to start going crazy without having my own friends to hang out with but it's not too much of a concern for now. I started my internship today. It was a pretty slow day on the job.. didn't really have much I could do. But, great people. I know it'll be good. And tomorrow will be better because I get to go meet with the client that I've been assigned to. I'll tell you more about their organization and what I'm doing tomorrow.

Lessons of the day:
1. When in doubt, print in greyscale.
2. Bring your lunch to work.
3. When the phone rings, answer it.

Highlight of the day:
My little cousin Gracie told me that I'm a 'really good artist'. Oh kids :)


For my HU friends, good luck with Jterm. Hope you all are having some enjoyable experiences!
LOVE YOU ALL!

attraversiamo

attraversiamo... let's cross over.

*sigh* I just finished a book. It was one of those books where it was more than reading it.. I experienced it.. I believe God speaks a lot to me through books and the writings of others. I believe He has this way of putting books like this into my hands just when I'm ready to listen to them. This book was about a woman's journey. Maybe you've heard of it.. maybe you've read it. It's called eat, pray, love by Elizabeth Gilbert. I'd give you the reader's digest version right here but I would much prefer you read it and experience it for yourself. Experiencing a book... it's this new concept I've been getting into lately. I've never been too into fiction books to tell you the truth... I've always been more interested in getting the real story.. making connections between others' thoughts and mine. Don't get me wrong, it's nice to get caught up in a good fictional plot every now and then, but I guess I usually get my fix of that through movies. When it comes to books though.. I want real people, real thoughts, real implications for my life. I've started this thing where I take on reading as more of a conversation than anything.. It's no longer a one way communication from the author to my mind but it's become this two way street of reading and response. I can no longer sit down and read without a pen near by to underline everything that my mind wants to linger with a little longer. Sometimes I'll make note of something incredibly insightful, sometimes it's something that makes me laugh, or sometimes it's just a combination of words that I like how they work together. And then, what makes the conversation even more interesting.. pass the book on to someone else. I love reading books after someone else has already worked through it and pulled out what especially struck them. It's like getting another friend involved in the conversation.. it only gets better, you see more. But anyways, I digress. It was a wonderfully inspirational and motivational book for this particular time in my life. I encourage you to read it. Ask me to borrow my copy, if you'd like.